If you wanna come get it, I'm with it.

Its unreal how much happier I've Bern since me and him started talking again. For way too long I was worried, heartbroken but still trying to hold onto old promises. Its really funny how long we've known eachother, how long we've been in love. Its a shame we haven't been able to be together for so many years, we're both trying to get our shit together so we can be with eachother. Its really weird to think about this situation. I've only talked to a few friends about it- they entertain me with advice or reassurance - but I know they dont get it. I'm fine with that though, all I've wanted for years is to be with him, permanently and I think things are starting to roll in that favor.
I got accepted to the School of Art Institute of Chicago(SAIC) and the Maryland Institute College of Art(MICA) though I'd be glad to attend any of the schools I applied to, Chicago is my dream. I hope I receive enough scholarship money and financial aid to attend, I really do. It'll mean so much more to me than a new school and city. I see it as the start of my life, one in which I make the decisions for my own welfare, one where I could really be me. No more trying to please family, friends, holding myself back and keeping myself in a situation in which I'm miserable.
As much as I love my mother I still hold a grudge against her that'll never leave. For her sake I've lived with her these past five years. We've fought and I've threatened to move in with my dad and as much as I still want to move out I know its just a few more months. I mean, how would you feel if nine of your three children couldn't stand to live with you? I dont act like I love my mother, for the most part I dont, but deep down she is my mom and that's why I try to forget how much she fucked me up. That's it for now, let's see if this mobile update works.